this is one of the greates days ever. yeah, i’m such a liar. the godness of happiness is making fun of me.
i’m afraid to say it can’t get worse because it will.
hope i won’t care and i’ll be ready to deal with all that shitty consequences that will follow.
July 2010
15 posts
it did that again. i will crash it one day! be afraid my darling phone…
hate
that stupid phone just canceled my previous 3 posts and i’m so angry i could screem and hit someone.
hate
that dog is killing me.
well, i should be happe that he cares about my shape…
“If you expect the worst, you’ll never be disappointed.”
—Sarah Dessen (Lock and Key) (via 500daysofkissingmypillow)
putting on my very best fake smile.
though feels like it doesn’t work…
this is going to be one hell of a night
memories
how it comes that every single detail what i can see around reminds me about things that have happened to me and never will again? and even if, as i thought back then, they were not the most joyful, they look so great now. it just makes me sad that nothing so nice happens anymore. it was so easy and cheery, and i want that part of my life back.
i even haven’t noticed when i became “the adult” and started dealing with all these problems, that sometimes seems so unimportant comparing to how my soul is suffering.
i finally want to start living my life.
it’s like a dream, like it’s not my life i’m looking at. like i can see wind, and understand that i should feel something but i don’t.
and it’s frightening me.
kāds te ir ļoti debīls.
un man ir aizdomas, ka tā neesmu es…
bļēģ
SHUT UP
